well annie i am extremely proud of you for getting that out, we all know austin is a dead beat father, and i told you on several occasions that i would love to be the father of ryan and the husband to you that you deserve, if not i wouldnt have proposed to you. and i know how hard it is for you but you should know i am still never going anywhere, and i am always going to be here for you. even through the hardest times when you take it out on me, i am still here, because i love you, and i will never stop loving you and ryan. you both are my life, and i would die before anything happens to you or ryan... that call that was made last night my mom told me all about, and you told my mom that you loved me, and just hearing that come from my moms mouth and here saying that, made my parents really happy, and proud... i will do all in my power to give in the world, and the love and life that you and my soon to be son should have... i have waited years to find you, the kind of person you are, you are truly magnificent in so many ways, and i am the happiest i have ever been in a really long time... you always ask me if i want to help with ryan, feeding him changing him holding rocking him to sleep and every moment we spend together me and that little guy, feels amazing, feels like god granted me the only wish i have been wishing and praying for for the longest time. you and your son found me, when i stopped searching, and when i dream, i dont dream about sadness and the death of my friends anymore, i dream of you and ryan every night, thinking of the next time i am going to be able to old him and feed him and change his diaper again. and i dream of you, holding you oh so tight, laying side by side, and kissing you with passion, nothing like this i have ever felt before, you 2 are my life, and i would give up everything to show you that. i love you annie jean cole and i love you ryan micheal, with every last beat in my heart, the sickening beats of a mother and son being abused, my heart isn't failing like it was in the past but growing stronger and stronger, with every second and minute i think of you 2, and spending those oh so forever days with you... you know me better than most, and you treat me with trust respect and loyalty and i love you more than ever cuz thats all i ever wanted to ask for...
soon you, ryan and i will move away, for from evil doings and be a happy family, cuz i promised you the best, and you know me and my promises i dont make them unless i know i can keep them. and rearly make promises... all i want to be is the sun to light up your day, and the moon to guide you through the night. you and ryan are my life, and you both are my forever'. i love you so much annie, and i love you so much too ryan, i want to be the best father to you son, and the best loving husband to you my fiance 'annie'
Carlos R Kaufman